Remember when I made a new year’s resolution to write something everyday and then only made it 2 days in a row? That was great. Then remember when I came back in March to talk about “the one that got away” then never showed my face again? (Oh and he’s still away if you’re wondering, but I am ok. I’m here sitting in this coffee shop and can see 2 cute baristas in my peripheral vision so you could say things are looking up?)
Well we are going to forget all that. I’m here with no pretenses. This is going to be my outlet. I will try to write as much as I can but who the hell knows what that will be. What am I going to write about? Well, buddy you’re guess is as good as mine! All I know is I remember the sense of relief I felt after I sit down and out pen to paper (hand to keyboard) and hopefully something good can come from it.
So what’s been up you ask? (Will I ever stop talking to myself?) Well big updates from me! Exactly 1 month, 1 week, and 1 day ago I quite my job with no plan what so ever.
Basically, I was so unhappy at my job I was changing into a person I didn’t like. I was working 16-18 hour days 7 days a week and had no semblance of a life. Even writing this I’m cringing because I know after working in that environment for over 7 years I know that there are plenty of people who do that every single day to provide for their families. I feel spoiled and selfish saying this but why do I have to be one of those people? I am young(ish), no one relying on me, no outstanding debts, and there’s no time like the present.
So I did it. I am now happily unemployed and have never felt better. I could really write a long post about this in itself so if you would like to hear that story just let me know.
Since I quit my job, I turned 28, traveled through Greece, gotten back into reading (for fun!) and never been happier or more at peace. Now, don’t get me wrong, I am in by no means encouraging everyone to quit their jobs. I thankfully am not a big spender and a good saver so I can take this opportunity to really find my self that I’ve never had before.
My life has always been “Rae you are going to go school and get straight As.” then “Rae you are going to be an engineer or a doctor no other options exist.” Now I get to see what options are out there.
The most important thing through all this is I’ve learned it is NEVER too late to start over. Whether you’re 28 or 58 take a risk and try something new if you want, or not. It is your life and nobody else’s so do what you want.
Much love, Rae.
This is about you. No its about me. This is about the fact that it is fucking 1:28 AM in the morning and I can’t sleep. This is because I am not still not over you.
This is about the fact that I think that you are annoying, but there is no one else I’d rather be with. This is because I watched a new show today and wondered if you liked it.
This is about the fact I can go weeks without thinking about you and then all of sudden there is one thing that reminds me of you and my whole world comes crashing down. This is because I feel we never had a chance.
This is about the fact I’ll never know what could of been. This is because we were both too scared to say anything.
This is about the fact I’ve never felt about anyone the way I felt about you, even after all this time. This is because you broke down all my walls.
This is about the fact every instagram like makes my heart go wild. This is because I’m probably pathetic.
This is about the fact all that all I want is to be your friend again. This is because you in my life in some way is better than not at all.
This is about the fact I miss you. This is because I like you more than I should.
What’s up guys! Ah, that was lame wasn’t it? I feel like this blog is just going to be a small unfiltered retrospective of my life, sort of like a diary entry, and I want some sort of standard way to start. ‘What’s up guys!’ is definitely not the right way. I guess this thing is a work in progress so lets add greeting to the list.
Anyway all day I was waiting for something interesting to happen for this post to be about, but guess what? Nothing particularly exciting or out of the ordinary happened. This is harder than I thought.
One of my favorite vloggers, Casey Neistat said he when he used to daily vlog he would take his day and try to make a story. It didn’t have to be his whole day, but he made sure he had an objective, a beginning, middle and the end. When I look at my day, what did I do: went to work, stopped by my parents afterwards, picked up dinner, came home chatted with my roommate and now here I am. No story, at least not one that I can see.
Or maybe the challenge is as a storyteller, a vlogger, a blogger is to take the mundane everyday things seem interesting? Holy shit did I just crack the code? Whoa. Alright I think we are on to something. Stay tuned.
Much love, Rae
Hi. I don’t really know what I’m meant to say here. Wow, this is off to a great start isn’t it. Anyway its 11:28 PM January 1, 2018 and I think I’ve just maid a New Year’s Resolution to start writing again. It used to be one of my favorite things to do, even though I wasn’t ever sure I was any good at it. Off topic. Sorry.
Anyway the point is things have been pretty shitty lately. Crap job, crap love life (who am I kidding NO love life), just a bunch of crap in general so I figure if I at least write it all down, maybe I’ll be able to figure it out from there. So here goes nothing.
The goal is to write something everything day, no matter how long or how short. I’m going to be pretty loose with the rules here the posts could be anything from a make up review, what I’m currently listening too, to the crazy things I think about when I can’t sleep. So if your looking for consistent content I’m afraid you’ve come to the wrong place. But, if you are looking for the honest musings of twenty something millennial who has absolutely no fucking idea what she is doing with her life you’ve come to the right place.
Alright, well since I’ve been nursing a hangover all day I guess thats all for now but I’ll catch tomorrow.
Much love, Rae